NEVER LIKED OCTOBER ANYWAYS.

The further I keep running away, the closer I get to myself. Really learning that I don’t exactly love myself. Somehow, I find it in me to see everything right in you.

Unconditional love is begging me to listen. 

Just my luck.

I have a feeling they might think we’re crazy.

I shouldn’t have to beg for you to stay.

Take note I’m looking you in the eyes.

I wanna kiss and tell the whole world about you.

I need a new hobby, and new friends.

I should’ve married the first guy who told me they loved me in high school.

An Upper Lonsdale good girl.

Then perhaps this wouldn’t all be so complicated. 

We have a second chance to do this winter right.

Feels like you don’t deserve it, but I see it in you and I think you do.

Tell me what you’re thinking,

Tell me how you really feel. 

Promise I can take it.

Even if I can’t really take it.

I swear somewhere this all works. 

And I won’t lie, this all really hurts but I am pretty useless when it’s day 3 of the bender.

Picking up my phone felt impossible.

If you can’t tell if I’m laughing or crying,

I don’t know either. 

We have been going way too fast, and I knew this was all going to collide.

Now it’s burning and I feel like pouring gasoline.

But I know you’re all tired of putting out the endless fires lately. 

One after another.

I’m losing count too.

Holding up my hand to make sure I’m still here.

Pinch me as hard as you fucking can.

I swear to god I’m dreaming.